love and marriage

사랑은 어렵지만, 결혼은 힘들다

Love is tricky, Marriage is hard.

Nothing in life comes easy.

I know that.
I've learnt that.
I use to nod to wise words saying Anything worthwhile takes effort of all kinds...
these days I wonder if there is the end of effort or patience that makes it all worth it. NOT that I am making the effort, but what kind of an ending should I be heading for that will ultimately justify my life as it is right now?
Am.I.Doing.the.Right.things?
Are.My.Decisions.all.for.the.right reasons? Or to begin with Am.I.Making.The.Right.Decisions in the first place?
I can't imagine any kind of good, let alone great end result of my life that I can agree with myself. There aren't any kind of game plan, and life is just lived day by day. No plan 'B' to move onto cause I'm just stuck at a situation that I had never imagined for myself. Yes, I dream of an escape that can't be or aren't desirable. But thats just cause it is, as it is called, an escape, not a solution to my problem.
As cheesy as its said and sang, I need Jesus to take my wheel, and I really need to just close my eyes and trust God, for once. No looking for signs or trying to read into everything. Just believe that there is a cause and exit for everything and be patient. God will shine a way through. And this time, I'll try not to take a peak at my road and cheat my way through, thinking I'm going through the easy shortcut. Cause I now know, shortcuts backfire, and the lashes of it are brutal.
Please steer me to the right direction. Please help me make the world a little better for all those close to me. All I want is happiness thay does right by my kins and those I care.